That makes your nose turn a blistering red
And the flowers pertrude beautifully,
I'll tan when the beaches are full
I remember...
Snowflakes diving in unity into coaptation.
You, asleep as I stared out the window of your living room.
The peace within. Me here. You there. I could've joined you at any time while you were trapped in your nightmarish dreams.
I preferred being where I was with all of my options. I knew I wanted out. Some moments were good, like that night. The sun would shine in the morning, and I would see the problems again. But tonight, it was all so beautiful.
It was quiet. I knew I liked you. Memories of good times. Things were changing. Without warnings and without conversation of how it would affect me. Had it all stayed the same, we would be in bliss. But things always change. I was no longer with you. Wasn't it evident? I'm by the window staring out into the night without you. It was figurative of what was happening. I couldn't be saved. It was too late. Too many thoughts had crept in.
We had good memories. But I am staring out the window all alone. It looks so beautiful. The sun will shine, and the problems will be lit. I already know what is underneath the layer. I am no snowflake. I will not be diving in. This is why it all didn't happen. And when I forget...I remember.